Life is tough...(I get it)...There was a time when I felt all alone and no one there to guide or help me. To be honest I felt like something was wrong for me to endure the many years of abuse I went through. Mine started at the age of four, I didn't understand what was going on, just that I felt that I must have deserved this life,. I felt the abuse was...(sorry for the pause)...it just floods my mind with all the evil that was done to me, and I want others to get help and know....IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT!!! The abuse became almost a daily routine, I didn't understand why I was treated this way, what did I do so wrong, was it my fault? I just endured it hoping it would stop. Yet, it did not stop, I would pray, and scream inside, feeling too scared to do anything about it. I was a child, what could I do? My abuser, who as I matured turned into abusers from my adopted family and their friends. I was taken away from my biological family because my father was the first one to start abusing me.
So eventually within months I was removed from my biological family and placed in a foster home...(out of the frying pan and into the fire)...this was supposed to be a fresh start for me. I was hoping that because they had a nice home, and other children, that my life was turning around, boy was I wrong!
Before I begin the next 12 years of my life, I want to point out that not all foster families are evil. It was just my luck to be separated from my other 2 younger brothers at the time, and my abuse became more frequent and severe. Although I survived, I now suffer from depression, PTSD, and other psychological ailments, which made it difficult to have a "normal" life.
I will be sharing more of my life, and let you know tomorrow will come, it may take some time...trust me if I had a magic wand, I would use it to take away a lot of pain that people suffer, it is why I created this blog to let others know, they are not alone.
Prayers,
Mandie
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