Et Tu Brother

Et Tu Brother

When you tell someone a secret, you cannot take it back. After years of pain and suffering, I thought I could tell my adopted father's son, my adopted brother about what was going on in my life.

For most people divulging a secret, means you can trust them and respect that they will keep it or advise you on your next course of action.

Although we lived in the same house, he would always taunt and tease me, I assume like most older brothers. He was roughly 4 years older then me, and I felt after the past several years that I could trust him with my dark secret.

After much debate, and on a day my adopted father wasn't home, I decided to tell him.

I approached him and told him I have something I want to talk to him about, I sensed he knew it was a serious conversation, so he asked me to come inside his room as not to be disturbed.

I said "OK, we can talk there."

So we went inside his room and he said "so, what's so important, that you want to talk to me?"

I could feel myself flushing from embarrassment, and I said "It's about our father."  I stammered for awhile and then I started telling him what has been going on.

I said "He has been making me do things to him and I don't like it."

My adopted brother responded saying "Instead of telling me what he did, can you show me?"

I was a little naive and scared, yet still trying to be convinced that he would help me, or at least involve someone to get me out of this horrid predicament.

As I slowly started undressing, he came over to his bed and helped me and asked "Did he do this?"

The next thing I knew my brother was all over me, doing exactly the same thing his father had been doing to me. I started crying, thinking what have I done?

He said "Its OK, I can help you," as he continued using me.

After he finished, I felt betrayed that my adopted brother would do the same thing his father had been doing to me.

The sad part is that whenever he wanted me, I had to give into him. I felt more ashamed because a part of me felt I put myself in this situation. To be used by someone I thought I could trust, left me feeling like sh*t. I regret telling him about his father, knowing I felt the one to be the blame.

Remember, you are not to blame when someone uses you, Intimacy is a pleasure to be explored by 2 willing participants.

At any time you want to stop, the other party should abide your wishes. Consent goes both ways, you must be freely willing to participate, and at any given point stop. PERIOD!

Et tu is a Latin phrase meaning as well as or you too, meaning also.

I chose William Shakespeare's play Julius Caesar,^[

According to Wikipedia "The phrase is often used apart from the plays to signify an unexpected betrayal by a friend." 

It is this betrayal from my adopted brother that I never suspected and felt I could trust him. I couldn't imagine that my adopted brother would betray me in such a devious and hurtful way.

It reminds me of the saying "The apple doesn't fall far from the tree."

According to Merriam Webster

"TRUST -a: assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something