Karen's Predicament

Karen's Predicament ~

Hi, my name is Karen, well it used to be when I was born. Let me tell you my story.  I was abused at the age of seven.  Yeah..I play RPG games, and that is a toon, obviously not my real picture. Granted I am an adult now will be 27 years old in a few weeks. I am not very good at writing.

Anyway, my father was in a car accident, I'll admit he was drinking. So he passed away, and my mom found a new boyfriend. At first he seemed nice and would brush my hair at night. Telling me I was pretty and slowly turned into him touching me saying he was Just massaging me so i can relax at night. My mom worked at a nursing home and sometimes had to stay late.

So Kevin...(not his real name)...began doing more then touching me, he said he wanted me to massage him. I was scared, but didn't know what to do. He said if I did this he wouldn't do anything bad to my mom. He said it will be our little secret. He said he would know if I ever told anyone, so this continued for the next 4 years.

When i was 11 years old I finally got the courage to tell my mom. I don't think she believed me at first until I got more descriptive of certain body parts. She then confronted Kevin, and they had a big fight.

She yelled for me telling me to go to the neighbors for help. so I did, and the police took him away.  I am not certain what happened to him until a few months ago. I was shopping at the mall, and thought I saw Kevin. I don't think he recognized me, but I had that same scared feeling come back.

I told my boyfriend about him, and he wanted kick his F'n A**. I told him no, so he told me i should seek a counselor.

So my counselor gave me ideas and mentioned story telling to help get it off my chest. So for the past 2 and a half months I have been reading Mandie Safe Haven. I took a chance and emailed her. She convinced me to write my story.

I am not certain how many people this might  help. After talking to Mandie by emails I feel better and enjoy her blog.

Peace,

Karen